Africa’s #LOL Daily Log: Invisible
Sometimes I feel like I am invisible. No one in the world sees me.
We all have insecurities or people that we care about that bring us down. For a minute, I had someone in my life that made me doubt myself as a woman and a professional. With them I was blind. Without them I was depressed. Fast forward seven months, I am now spearheading a documentary on Soca Icon Giselle The Wassi One and traveling the world covering the carnival culture.
I still feel like my work goes unnoticed. I feel like the work I do isn’t seen. It is frustrating to work so hard for so long. Yes, my blessings are upon me. I am traveling the world doing what I love, with people I enjoy being around. However, this Trinidad trip has made me realize that all powerful and seemly successful women go through stages of depression daily because as a woman it feels as if you are never doing enough. Take my client, for example, she has been a mas band leader for 30 years and an influencer in the Soca industry but yet still she is still fighting to make her name identifiable outside of her circles. She has admitted to me that on a daily base she has moments of depression.
As a woman, you are not allowed to be emotional. You cannot breakdown nor are you allowed to take credit alone for your successes. In a sense, you are supposed to exist in the shadows no matter how much you shine. Maybe that is why no matter how much we do, we feel invisible. Society has dictated for so long the role of a woman. While we would like to believe times have changed. They have not. Millions voted to make “America Great Again” while thousands voted no to an equality bill in the Bahamas.